1/4/2005 - With Time And Effort, I Get Most Of What I Want

I'm pretty clear about what I want out of my life. I spelled out some of my desires in Rant. So how have I been doing on those things?

- Still short on the cash, and DisneyWorld isn't looking that promising. 0 for 1.
- I haven't gotten my grades in the mail yet, but I saw them on the online system, and they're all A's. I have a 4.0 average, and I've made the Dean's List. 1 for 2.
- I got a 2 pound beef tenderloin roast, and I had the whole thing for myself. I meant to share it, but that didn't work out. Rather than feel bad about not being able to share, I'll mark that up as a win. So I'm 2 for 3.
- Sex. Yeah, like that's gonna happen. I've actually had three pretty good opportunities within the past week, but it would have been "Aw, dammit" sex instead of "Fluffy clouds" sex. 2 for 4.
- Performing. We had a New Year's Eve show, and it went fantastic. The proof is right here. The only show that was more satisfying was the one in Eastown, which, incidentally, is where my path first crossed Boo's. This would be 3 for 5, but the show was so satisfying that I'm counting it as 2, so I'm 4 for 6.
- No one has told me any jokes recently, but I've read some online, so I'm going to count this one as a desire that has been met. 5 for 7.
- The very day I desired the peanuts, a big container of peanuts appeared at my client's office. 6 for 8.

So my life is 75% good, which is pretty decent, all things considered.

About that show, I just can't stop thinking about how great that felt. I'm so madly and passionately in love with performing that I could just cartwheel right here. Nothing else mattered. Have you ever looked into someone's eyes, and felt such a deep desire for that person that you knew at that moment that you had fallen irretrievably in love? I haven't, but that's how I feel about music. If music had a body, I'd pour a bottle of baby oil all over it, and we'd just slip around all naked for a few hours.